Sunday, 22 July 2012


I am far less than an ordinary girl in this extraordinary world, strong and courageous like that rigid stone lying by the side of a road, impervious to the pain rendered by the crushing foot-steps of the sundry pedestrians.

I am full of imperfections and coarseness has become one of my most distinguishing features. On that bend where I lie, appreciating the beauty of stars at night, the darkness fails to penetrate my tough exterior but the trivial light of moon never fails to delight my numb senses.

There was a time when I was trampled badly,  to the point that transcended all the precincts of anguish or any sort of sensation. I tried hard to put my chaotic life into some semblance of order only to fling myself into that deserted territory of recluses, where I vowed never to return to my native land.

In this new world I styled and tailored myself in a way that would make me less vulnerable. From dawn to dusk I follow the same ritual that I used to follow earlier , with the subtle variation,  that this time I draped my soul in a black fabric and cordoned it off  by laying a careful siege of cool civility and indifference around it, thereby rendering it unperceivable to the scrutiny of those marked by even the slightest of  curiosity or  other forms of humanly emotions.

On some nights, when I shut my eyes, the intense wisp of air through my window throws open all the doors that I had once closed, bares my soul and takes away the dark cloth.

I can’t deny the fact,  that it feels nice to let the  watchdogs down  for a while ,that it feels nice to do away with the disguise that had been protecting me thus far and venture into those forbidden places for once, where I bask in the light of self-enlightenment and actualization.

In that vulnerable form, I ran into someone a few days ago and from that very day onwards, a constant penchant to throw away the darkness and let the brightness pass through every fibre of my being, has never left my side..

I keep commuting between the two worlds, I often find myself ensnared in the insurmountable limbo of restlessness….

I long to extricate myself from this abysmal quagmire..


  1. A lovely selection of words to convey the train of thoughts in a poetic style, Puji! Very well written and you managed to send me in a tizzy of thoughts!

    1. Thank you very much sir for such kind words and for being a constant source of inspiration through your lovely comments.. :)

  2. Nice lines Puji ... the poem displays the trials that one has to go through to be free ... yet no one can be totally free in this world ... people are all linked up to different entities, human and objects, and thus can never boast of complete freedom or independence !!!

  3. Thnk you very much green speck, for understanding this write-up so well and leaving such a lovely comment.. :)

  4. very eloquent use of words puji.. extremely well written..
    we all r in this constant struggle to break free.. so can well relate to what you wrote down so well :)

  5. Hello Dreaming wanderer,

    Thank you very much for gracing this post with such a lovely comment and understanding.. :)

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